This is a week that I can't seem to get my mind off of Shawn and the hole in my heart. I would like to share some things about my son that made him the person he was. When he was little, his hero was the 6 million dollar man. He loved to run all over the place. When he was 5, he was driving me crazy one day, and I thought about something he could do which would keep him occupied. I gave him a salt-shaker with salt in it. I told him if he could put salt on a bird's tail, he would be able to… Continue

I found this web site hoping there would be somebody going through the same thing or close to it but do young people never lose spouses by freak accidents? i mean it makes me feel like im for some reason being punished i know thats not true but still...they had a 8 week grief seminar in my town and i thought great people i can talk to but i was the only one under the age of 40 there! not that i want other young women and men go through the same thing ugh i dont know…

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Received Eric's stuff today in the mail that his sister had sent me. I must of known it would be here today. I felt nervous all morning and was thinking about it. Part of me was scared to open it because of the emotions that would come from seeing, touching smelling his stuff. I went through the book he was writing in to me. It was obvious how much he loved me, and how much he was looking forward to our future. This makes me so sad and frustrated. I don't think I will ever find anybody like…

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My husband got addicted to crack and took his life going on 4 years this July. We have two children together...ages 10 and 6. I long for the family I thought we would have. We were married for 16 years. I loved him very much. He started using back in 2002(he hid it from me).....I didn't find out until 2005. He was never mean to me or his children. I watched the man I love turn into someone I didn't even know. I need some support. I feel so alone and fight depression a lot. I can't seem to move… Continue

Shortly before we got together, my wife gave birth to her daughter, and then put her up for adoption.  She'd known she didn't have it in her to be a good single parent and staying with the father....wasn't an option.  Every year since, around this time, she'd gotten a card from the adoptive parents with pictures of her daughter and an update on how she was doing.  In the last few years, one of the cards said that her daughter was starting to get curious about her birth mother.  As far as I…

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On November 27, 2010, I lost my best friend. This past february 1st, would have been our 5th anniversary. February has always been a good month because of my birthday that I share with my sister and Valentine's Day. On february 1st, he entered my life. For over 4 years he has brought me joy, every february was our month. At the stroke of midnight, I always heard "happy anniversary baby" and since he lived on the east coast, I heard it again at 2am. Through out the day, we talked and talked…

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This actually happened to me today.

 

I have been at the end of any rope I can hang onto in recent weeks. Im not going to blame this on the loss of my brother, Lyle in December. Its been a hard road for a long time. I felt as I was walking into my daughters school today that I had lost my Faith. It has never happened to me. When we lost Lyle I felt my Faith solidify. I felt closer to Heaven then I've ever been.

Whitney left her winter boots and glasses at home today.…

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