shawn, on wed it will be a year,  im so filled with sadness, lonelyness  emptiness and so very heart broken. I remember it all like it was yesterday. each day is harder and harder to try to go on. I still pray each night to go with you. I know I don't want to go on with out you. I cry everyday and night, sadness floods over me and I cant hold on. with out you there is no sun, no light, just darkness all the time. I promise ill be with you soon, to hold you forever and never let you go. to live like this filled with pain is just not for me. im so dead inside, when you went away I died.  you are the love of my life, my everything. night god bless my son love you ,  mom