I"m so happy and so sad at the same time. Finally, after months of waiting,  Daddy came back to me in a dream.  I've waited so long.. and it was short and sweet.

I dreamt that I was in their house walking through trying to find the bathroom. I sense that Mom is in one of the bathrooms. All the bathrooms were locked for some reason so I go through Mom & Dad's bedroom. As I walk through the bedroom i see Daddy lying in bed, sleeping. Peacefully, happy.  In my dream I know he's…

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Who would have thought that one dinner would change life around? I've spent months feeling sad, depressed, alone. I hole up trying to deal with it. Understand it. Feel. Grieve. In the end i just feel worse. And more alone. Finally i just can't take it anymore. And a simple text from a friend i haven't seen in months gets me out to a early dinner. I talk. I cry. We share. And i feel a little better. Only to feel horribly guilty that i feel better. What the?



I get home and i realize… Continue