I think I finally figured out my magic cure for constant, agonizing grief.  It is so simple but I cant have it all the time.  It is my grandchildren.  Last week my youngest grandson who lives 10 minutes from me and is almost 11 called and asked if he could come have a sleepover on the weekend.  He figured it was time to give his mom and dad some peace and quiet.  He is a very very bright, and ever more active little boy.  He has been awarded the academic award every year he has been in school… Continue

Well today was the day after our Thanksgiving weekend.  At first I didnt think I could handle hosting the dinner knowing my husband wouldnt be at the head of the table, and who would carve the turkey.  Not to mention that our sons place would be empty again too.  He died March 2010.  First our daughter and her family called and they wouldnt be coming home this year for financial reasons.  They got a little behind during Toms illness with all the trips back and forth and then our daughter stayed… Continue

Today is 3 months.  I feel more lost than I did the morning you died.  Our son is coming for dinner tonight to celebrate his birthday.  I had to sign his card, love mom.  No love dad.  The first time in 34 years, you were there when he tried to blow out his first candle and ended up sticking his head in the cake.  I dont have a picture of you with him that year.  You were the one taking the pictures.  Next week is Thanksgiving.  I'm trying to find things to be thankful for and I will be… Continue