The title says it all. I need to get out of this funk I've been in. Its been a week since I found out...when does it start getting easier? Everything has been suffering. I'm a stay at home mom. My relationship with my fiancee has been suffering. My housework has been suffering. This house looks a mess right now. My fiancee wants to spend time with me and I've just been sleeping nonstop. He understands so he doesnt press the issue, but I don't want my life to suffer because of this. I want to…

Mine and my father's relationship was always about ups and downs. When I was growing up, I remember him to be a loving and caring person, always there when I needed him. He would spend hours braiding my hair, or if I had to have a special school project done he would help me with it. I remember motorcycle rides on the back of his Goldwing to Catholic school (Oh the looks we would get, but I loved it) and I was daddy's little girl.

Somewhere along the line I started to grow up...and…