every day it seems to get harder to go on. shawn would have hated this cold and snowy winter.every night I still ask why, why my son? why not me? and why is he leaving me here to suffer so much. life is not worth going on, and I really don't want to any more.  I want so much to hold my son, kiss his face . I have never bee so tired, never felt pain and emptiness like this before.  at night I can smell him, but still no dreams, no answers. I just want to die, im not afraid, im ready. shawn help me to be with you, take my hand and ill go. I miss you so bad, I need you so much. please take away my pain, my broken heart. help me to smile again, to feel your love.  always and forever my baby, I love you    mom

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Comment by Karen T. on February 18, 2015 at 8:11pm

Kim,

It has been so wonderful (if my "f" ke is funny causd it's n sticking) to have you here and as a freind I personally want to say thank you for thant. Yeah thw cold and wet are awefful, especialy when you ahe-ve a oewrmanent wound).  I just hit the 4 month mark of losing my husband so It totally understand. If there is anything I can do for you let me know me I'll do my best :).

Comment by Sharon on February 16, 2015 at 10:08am
Kim,
I know how much pain you are in. I lost my beautiful son just one week ago. I too am struggling to give up and be with him. each day is a struggle to get up and try and act normal. Know that others here know what you are going through... We will somehow get through this together. Huggs to you.
Sharon

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