It's been 3 months, sweetheart. The days truly crawl. I miss you so much. Your daughters all celebrated their birthdays last week. Why did you get their presents  so early? They had a wonderful party. I complimented Davin on his choice of gifts for them and he started crying and told me you had bought every single one of them. He too didn't understand why you had insisted on buying them when you did. 

I love you daughter...I struggle without you. We all do. But since your passing I have no zest for anything. Your daughters make me smile. But there is such an emptiness behind it. I feel the pain they will suffer growing up without you. I believe the word "Fair" should be stricken from the English language for it is a figment of our imaginations to hope for it and believe in it's reality. I am tired of the struggles in this life. Now the small glimmers of happiness I manage to grasp are so fleeting they hold little value to me.... I am just so tired.