a little bit of relief, a lot of gratitude!

When I lost my job on Friday afternoon I felt really low for a lot of reasons, but the worst of it was that I was worried that I would have to break a promise to my 7 year old daughter. Literally the day before I had brought her to her first ever Jazz class. It was a free trial class to determine if she would enjoy taking lessons and what class to put her in. She was amazing she really put an effort in and it was the firs time, probably ever, that I had seen her participate voluntarily in any social activity without her big sister at her side.  

She has always been so very shy so I was a little surprised when she told me she wanted to go to dance. She loves watching shows like 'so you think you can dance' and 'America's best dance crew' and even 'Dance moms'. She has always loved music and dancing so I told her that we could check out classes.  We looked them up on the internet and they are a little to expensive for me and there are no local free programs that would put her in the type of dance she wanted to try so I decided that I was going to do whatever it took to make sure she could take the classes.  

Since I was working I decided to go for it, even if I have to turn my cell phone off to afford it. I don't make promises to my kids often, because I hate breaking them. I would rather sacrifice and cut corners to make it happen than have to go back on a promise. I have not been able to give my kids much so this was the first time in Isabella's life that she came to me and told me she wanted something and I was able to give her hope.. to crush that hope just one day later would have been heartbreaking. 

I posted to facebook after I lost my job that I was feeling like a loser because I would have to break my promise. I was not looking for anything to come of the post, just feeling regretful. I was touched when several people offered to help out with paying for Bella's classes. My family, and close friends, and even friends that I haven't talked to in a long time.  I took an offer from a family member who said they would pay for her first month and thanked everyone else saying that if she decides to stick with dance and I don't have a job by the next time she needs to pay due's I will let them know. A couple that I went to high school with bought her Jazz shoes and delivered them today.. and now 5 hours later she is still wearing them and she is so excited about her first class tomorrow!!

I have never been good at asking for help, usually I sacrifice my comforts and sometimes my children's comforts for other people. I was hesitant to take help for her dance classes because they are not really a 'NEED' but Bella deserves to have a little happiness, a little fun, and a way to make some new friends,.. something to be passionate about!! I am so grateful to everyone that offered and everyone that helped, and we are both looking forward to her first official class tomorrow!!

<3 M

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Comment by Sandra Nichols on July 23, 2012 at 9:42am

I am so sorry for your loss and sorry about you losing your job. l also have to work and don't know how i'm hanging on. There is nothing wrong with taking some help!!! Not at all. Take care of yourself and take care of your children. 

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