Iam on night shift two nights out of the week,its the two worst shifts of the week.Mainly because your whole sleeping cycle is disrupted.I end up taking meletonin.I have shots of vodka becasue I hate just laying in bed waiting to fall aleep

So did I make an appointment with the Psychotherapist Nooo! Shesss .Nor the dermatologist.I don,t know whats wrong with me(other than a upset stomach )meltonin and booze mixed together.Well I have to do over time for two hours plenty of time to make appointments . (trying to convince myself) Is it worth it to go back to the hospital and complain over taking a somewhat healthy woman and turning her into a vegtable in two weeks . I was thinking what if I closely monitored her health 10 yrs ago and got on her about her meds and blood pressure.

I was going to say we all try to avoid laying in a hospic pumped full of morphine waiting to die.However not all of uis think that way.

Iam sick with depair,like I don,t want to go on anymore. Unfortunatly part of me gets up in a melitonin vodka stupor get dressed makes food for shift and goes to work.

Iam thinking its taking its toil (yes it is Dave !!!) inner voice.

 

I pray to God to relieve my pain

 

Dave

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Comment by Debra Waszut on July 18, 2012 at 3:43pm

You need to get to a support group or get some help now before something really bad happens.  Trust me, things are bad now but they could get worse and a griefshare group in your area might really help.  It is helping me now.  I have a meeting to go to tonight.  I look forward to this.  It helps to be around real people who understand.

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