I find Iam not as strong as I think Iam. Far from it ,eveything that has happend has overwelmed me and I had better admit it.Rome wasn,t built in a day. I kid myself when I just suck up the fact that my wife died and just keep on going. Nooo! far from it I had better slow down encompass the grief as it were. Iam not going to wake up and jump out of bed and go 100 mph.Everyday I find has to be structured. Iam sorely lacking in the nutritional food dept. Iam going to plan out menues in advance ,trying to stay away from salt.

I thought why not lay in bed just an hour longer. SLOW DOWN !!!  Today Iam finding that number of the psychotherapist and call and make an appointment.

I know one cannot simply erase the years spent with a loved one. well anyway at this point I want to erase the whole blog but I won,t

Dave