its 457am in austin tx. I have been up since 3am .Mainly because I was up yesterday late and crashed late in the day which messed up my plans of getting my sleep cycles in order.To make matters worse I have some overtime I didn,t want but have to go to(umm nows the time to schedule all my appointments on my day off which is today)

Walking off the street into a greif support would be hard for me to do as I would have to recount all the details of my wifeds passing.This is very painful to me and its feelings that more or less "bring me to knees" for lack of better description.

Without going over the emotional and psychological ups and downs of my life I recogonize I need to do something(I think) Yes truthfully I feel there is that urge to just hit a stone wall in my life is just around the corner.However I have lived a sheltered life,with my wife guiding me along the way for 35 years ,so its not easy,BUT I wouldn,t say it cann,t be done its harder in my case. its just going to take time more or less

Dave