a post said to have family help they did not read the post my family could care less. to they don't contact me I have to contact them? it makes me feel what the heck i'm ihere for. at1stmy other son would call me now he barely speaks to me.i email or call andl eave messages and I hear no anser or i'm having a bad week just email and then he does not reply to them. I just don't know how much more of this ican take. I just want to leave and  not let anyone know where I am they would not care…

I feelng so bad right now my life feels like it did when my parents died a yr and 10 days apart and my birthday in the middle of that. Hate August. And now my oldest son has died 3/14/2013 I feel that i'm all alone. its like when my parents died my sister took everthing and we have not had a family dinner since then much less talk to each other. I have to call them if I need help. then after my separation in 1999 my ex told my sons a bunch of lies before he told me he wanted a divorce. it…

Not looking forward to to august mom died aug 12,82 dad died aug 24,82 and my birthday is aug 15. ialways wish the month away. but this yr even harder because on the 14will be 5 months since my son died.

My son loved the 4 of July and thurs the 4th will 3 1/2 months since he died it will be .a very sad week for me being alone.  I know i'm been alone for holidays since the divorce but this hard without my son Kris and I know my other son will be hard also so he wont want to talk that  day.I think I just stay in my pj and watch tv or movies all day. what a day.

this wil be the 1st holiday without my son. it will be 2 month on the14 that he passed away. It has already started to hurt. it will also be 30 yrs since my mom died. i'm always  alone on holidays and it just make i  t worse this yr. I feel like im so alone. None of my family has lost a child an they don't understand the pain that i'm going through. it just doesn't go away over night. my other son isdoing the man thing where they try and be  stong and do not want to talk about…

I,m feeling so alone and hurting so much. it feels like I,m dealing with this by myself. I lost my oldest son kris march 14,2013 and my other sonwho lost his brother andbest friend does not want to talk about it. if I call him and i'm crying because i'm hurting he can't standit my counsleer says that brian isafraid to talk with mewhen i'm crying because hes afraid that he will break down. I know that's the manley way to handle thingslike this but I hate feeling im alone. i'm divorced so no…

My oldest on Kristopher died March 14,2013 after a long illness. He was just getting over gallium barre system. Thenhebecame jaundance and his liver falled and kidneys couldnot getto toxins out. He fault so hard. he lived 1 1/2 months this last time. we did what he wanted and glad of that. but i'm missing him so much I feel likepart of mehas died. I have lost bothmy parents 30 yrs and 29 yrs ago I still have days that I miss so much. how do you survie the death of a son? I dontthink I…