I,m feeling so alone and hurting so much. it feels like I,m dealing with this by myself. I lost my oldest son kris march 14,2013 and my other sonwho lost his brother andbest friend does not want to talk about it. if I call him and i'm crying because i'm hurting he can't standit my counsleer says that brian isafraid to talk with mewhen i'm crying because hes afraid that he will break down. I know that's the manley way to handle thingslike this but I hate feeling im alone. i'm divorced so no husband to lean on.

my sister and I had a blow out the Monday of the week kris died and she said i'mout of her live and she will never talk to me again.  himve talked to twice since then but called before that and she never called meback. my olderbrother tells me to call him anytime I need to talk but I feel like im brother him. the same thing I have withmy best friend I talk to her she seems to lways change the subject if I talk about kris or my familyor tell her that I miss her. I feellike I did when my unemployment ran out this past april 2012 my family said that they couldnot help me and my friends seem to withdraw from me so in june I tried to kill myself because no cared about me. i'm feelingthat way again its like im dealing with the death all alone. I miss kris so much. sunday will be one month since he died one day we will havea celebration ofhis life just don't know when. my son wanted to be cremated and he was do you ever get over losing a child. I've lost both of my parents long ago but I had my husband andtwo boys to help me through it, I have no one to help me through the lost of my son.