I feelng so bad right now my life feels like it did when my parents died a yr and 10 days apart and my birthday in the middle of that. Hate August. And now my oldest son has died 3/14/2013 I feel that i'm all alone. its like when my parents died my sister took everthing and we have not had a family dinner since then much less talk to each other. I have to call them if I need help. then after my separation in 1999 my ex told my sons a bunch of lies before he told me he wanted a divorce. it tookmany months before they started opening up to me but it was not ever the same and now that Krisis dead my other son Brian is hurting a lot he has lost his brother and best friend in one time. I know he is hurting but does not want to talk about it. He has started not returning my calls likethey did after the divorce and it hurts so much. I feel so very much alone. I wrecked my car on the way to the hospital to see kris and have no way to get out of my apt. its like its all the same again and i'm starting over alone I just want to disappear and never be heard from again. my family would not care!