I cannot forget how my mother died and I don't know if she is just dead or in a better place

 

My mom rarely complained even though she was diagnosed with stage four…

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My identity is intertwined with being a good daughter to my mother because she sacrificed  everything to me  and her selflessness  is what motivated to go  on living. My mother was an immigrant  who left her family and her  role as a housewife  to come to Canada and provide a better future for her children. After the divorce, she worked harder than anyone else I know in order  to provide a life for myself and my brother.  She had  no choice but to be strong and determined  without a husband…

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The strangest thing happened to me a few days ago. I went out for a walk on my own, a rare occurrence as I usually have my two little people with me. But this day I was alone. I strode off out of my gate and along the waterfront where I live. A moment or two passed when I realised how tall I seemed. I felt like I was walking on a cloud. Somehow I felt elevated. I wondered if it was simply because I wasn't pushing the buggy and looking down at the…

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When Lily died I missed her with all my heart and soul; but I wasn't lonely. I still had my husband. Our conversations filled in some of the gaps in my life that being without Lily left behind.

Recently, however, I have been without my husband. I still have Summer and Riley to play with…

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I am having a challenging time with a specific person in my life right now. Amidst all my preparation for Christmas I need to deal with this person who it feels wants to drag me down as low as he is feeling! I have been trying to focus on all the amazing support and love I have been receiving from my special friends here on this page (thank you again). I have been trying to not take it personally, to just feel sorry for him and the pain he is feeling but today it got the better of me and…

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How do I begin to heal?  It's been about 4  months since Dad passed away and I still have a hard time talking about it.  I've tried telling my story on here for months but every time I start typing I break down.  I'm still trying to makes sense of things.   He passed away on September, 3^rd 2012 at 8:03 AM from lung cancer.  He went from diagnosis to death in a matter of a couple weeks.  My Dad was the healthiest person I've ever known.  By the time he…

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Maybe it will just help to write this out. My 67 year old mother passed away unexpectedly the day after my 40th birthday. My Dad has been battling lung cancer all year. My Mom has always been a 'sickly' person who quite enjoyed getting attention from the doctors. I can't say that we had the best relationship - I know she meant well, but she was quite abusive when I was a kid and manipulative as I became an adult. My Dad has always been the quiet one to standby and let it all happen. About…

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This is my first post on this site. I was up late a few nights ago crying (my usual habit these days), and discovered this site. I hope to gain some perspective on the grieving process from other members, especially those in the "I love my Dad" and "Losing Someone to Cancer" groups--but of course any support is wonderful. :)

I lost my Dad on June 3rd of this year to bile duct (pancreatic duct) cancer. We learned he had it in March, when he went to the hospital looking yellow. We suspected… Continue