Ok so here is the thing, when my mom went into a coma on the second day, her dad, sister, brother, and mother was ready to pull the plug and not give her a chance to survive. Since my mom has been gone, I haven't heard from any of them except my grandmother. My point is, is that my stepdad is so mad at her sister(can't stand her) and only her. Now I am mad at all of them but wondering why I get so mad when he talks about her..he says that she got into our business when she shouldn't have,…

It's been almost eight months since my mom has been gone and I'm no where near finding peace within myself, in fact, most days I feel worse. I thought in time, I would be able to cope better, remember the memories, and move forward, but sadly this hasn't been the case. I have hit an emotional block, where nothing can get in and I can't release the pain I feel within. I'm trapped by my own feelings..I've tried to make sense of it but can't! It seems that I'm living on a rollercoaster; I'm up…

I have been watching Criminal Minds and The Big Bang Theory to distract myself because if I don't, I think about my mom 24/7..I think about ending it all, all the time, but some days are worse than others. I know my mom would want me to be happy because that's all she ever wanted but the feeling in my heart and soul is just too great at times. I don't know how to have a life without her!!:'(

Sleep was the only thing that I looked forward to because atleast my mind would stop thinking…