It's me not coping again .Not sleeping at night but boy can I sleep in the day ,whats up with that? Mom I miss you .I think I hear you from time to time ,like just now I could swear you just snized. I like to think that you are coming back to me .That some how this yes this has all been some kind of nightmare I have been stuck in .

Matt took me to that little farm today ,the one we all went to last year.I did the same as we did then and went around and hand picked a vase of flowers…