It's me not coping again .Not sleeping at night but boy can I sleep in the day ,whats up with that? Mom I miss you .I think I hear you from time to time ,like just now I could swear you just snized. I like to think that you are coming back to me .That some how this yes this has all been some kind of nightmare I have been stuck in .

Matt took me to that little farm today ,the one we all went to last year.I did the same as we did then and went around and hand picked a vase of flowers that I know you will like. I have them on the table with all the cards and your picture.I love you mom .help me make it through because I truly can not do this on my own.

As I prepare myself for my day ahead, I go through a little retual.I have a hard time dressing because you wear my designer ,always  helping me out and telling me how  i look my best .Saying my little girl will knock thier socks off,she will put them all to shame .So now I check myself in the mirror before leaving and go in your room and tell you how much I love and need you .As I shut the door to your room I say Love you mom & i will see you later mom.

Love your Kimberly