May 9,2015 that date will live with me forever !! It's the day that my world changed .I miss you mom and every moment since then you have just stayed right on my mind.For 15 years you and I got to be the best of each others world.I had been your caregiver all those years and mom I would not have changed any of it.I know I was not easy to live with and we both would get on each others nerves but we were still each others world.

How oh how do I carry on without you .I ask myself this a lot cause the pain gets to me.I have giving in to bad thoughts and I am sure everyone who's world has ever been turned upside down by a death goes through it.Bella &Boomer and the big guy are what keep me here.

I miss you mom .To watch what you had to go through over those few days was heart breaking and I am sorry for your pain.I live with that everyday.When the doctor said that you were going to pass within hours of that Friday night ,I just wanted to scream you don't know mom my.I know that you would try and hold on.I want to thank you mom for giving me that gift of waking up and looking into my eyes and doing your best to say I love you.You were so brave & strong for me.I kept your wedding rings on until the end even though your little fingers swelled up.I will keep them safe and carry them with me every day like I do with dad's cross.

I want and I still need you mom.I was not ready to let you go .,there is still so much I wanted to share with you.Being the baby of six no one every told me that I would be in this alone by myself. I am sorry mom that my brothers and sisters are like that ,I know that they were all rised better then what they have proved to be acting like right now.For Gods sake we were all raised by the same parents. A loving and caring mom and dad.

Please take dads hand and hold it so tight and never let it go because you have waited so long to be beside your one and only love.I don't know when but I will be in both your loving arms again one day. I love you ,no I love you more ,whole bunches,

Your forever loving daughter 

Kimberly