Lost and regret are two words I really hate. I lost my best friend. I regret the times I won't have her here with me. I miss her every damn day. I feel like i'm not whole any more. That the things that matter don't because she's not here.

I regret all the stupid fighting we did over nonsense. I loved her from very core. We were sisters, and best friends. 

I know that our love and friendship while now separated in death, will never die, but God it hurts so…

God help me tonight. My heart hurts so much. I love'd rosie with everything. I'm lost. I come  home and talk to her parents, and we share stories, and how much we all loved her, and miss her. I just at times don't know what to do.

I miss her laughter, and chatter, I miss the simple companionship we shared. I don't know what else to do. I'm feeling very sad lately.