I really don't think I can do this much longer, I can literally feel my heart aching, i feel like i can't breathe, I never knew you could ever miss anyone so much, its killing me, I knew it would be bad but after 7 months I guess I stupidly thought maybe I wouldn't feel like im dying inside so much, I was so wrong, I don't know if I'm just having an extremely bad week but he's in my head 24 hours a day don't get me wrong, I want him there but I can't take it (well actually thats a lie , I…

I've just so had enough , the kids are in bed and it's just another night just sitting here, I have no intrest in the t.v, in fact I have no intrest in anything at all. I miss my conversations with my Andy, he always made me laugh he had a quirky sense of humour which I adored. When he died everyone said there will never be anyone like him, and there won't be. I work in the day so I'm kept quite busy , but these nights sat alone are killing me, the days just seem to roll in to one, I can…