I refilled my prescription for my antidepressant yesterday and swallowed that bitter little pill before bed last night. Apparently, I must have needed it, for it knocked me out till 10:30 this a.m. I scrambled to get dressed for work, then spent half an hour trying to "mend my face"--cover the deep dark circles under my eyes with half a tube of concealer stick,  draw my eyebrows on in such a way that I won't look like Joan Crawford or someone who just spotted a large rat running across the…

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 this pain will never end, I cry so much, I hurt so bad. I told my husband tonight to let me go. I just cant keep hurting so much.  I want to be with my son, and I know shawn needs me to. all these pills im on do nothing,  my life is just tears, pain, sadness. im ready to go, I want to go.  dear god let me be with my son, stop this hell I live in please. im so lonely please 

I'm mad as hell right now, I've just read on here about anothers person loss and it's heartbreaking. Every night before I go bed I speak to Andy not because I believe he's here and can hear me because truthful I don't, it's just something I do , anyway tonight I more than ever hope I'm wrong and that he can hear me because I will be telling him if there is a so called god,please tell him that I think he's a fucking wanker for taking yet another daddy away from a small child like I've just…

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Every day it's gets harder and harder. The holidays were a blur and were not fun as they used to be. No one wants to give it at they're house. We got a rental room but it was timed...next year I may just go to Disneyland. I am in so much pain most of the time. I wanna live but I just my nephew was still here...wish I could have said good bye...he did so unexpectedly and suddenly...never got to say anything...I mis our talks and the funny stuff we used to talk about...I miss my nephew!!!

Ok even though I said I wouldn't go out socially again, as it felt so wrong last time, i gave it another chance and went to my good friends 40th party, her being a good friend and the fact that my daughter wanted to go I found myself thinking why the hell not, my lifes over anyway and new years eve and day were just the most horrific days for me even worse than xmas day , I spent the whole 2 days in floods of tears so I knew going to the party couldn't be really worse, but I still haven't…

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Link from Article http://www.indianapolismonthly.com/longform/dear-kate-living-with-grief/

Article written by a mom who lost her daughter. Very well written and honest.

Dear Kate:…

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2016 Three years and I miss you T.J. I just can not accept this horrible life without my only son!

its got my tears u cud say…

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I wish I didn't have so much responsibility resting on my shoulders while I am grieving. My husband is ill and can't work, so alot is on me and I feel too sad alot of days to even get up and trudge off to work, but I have no choice. Its sink or swim! I'd be grateful for a three day weekend once in a while. I'm so tired.