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Permalink Reply by Nicole on December 11, 2011 at 9:16am

Hi Sean.  I also lost my mom in September, and my dad in December 2010.  I know how you feel.  I am here if you ever want to talk.

Take care

Nicole

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Permalink Reply by sean threat on December 11, 2011 at 11:59am

thanx nicole know one understands grief until you lose someone i wake up crying and go to sleep crying i get overwhelmed ive never been this emotional i feel like a kid whos lost his best frriend for ever i pray that God deliviers me from this state of mind people tell me to think about the good times but im not at that stage yet i lost my father in 1989 and only sister in 2000 and my girlfriend was fatallyk killed in 2006 in a car accident it gets tough to move on but thanx  im  going to get some therapy and take a lil medication to help me balance my thoughts

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Permalink Reply by Nicole on December 11, 2011 at 12:28pm

Hi Sean.  I also agree with you, nobody understands until they have experienced it themselves.  I started seeing a therapist on monday, and hopefully it will help me.  I sometimes feel like a little girl whose parents left her in a crowded shop and never returned.  I have to make decisions on my own now, I used to share everything with my mom, she was my best friend.  People say they will always be there for me but it is still not the same, nobody will replace my parents.  I also find it very difficult to control my emotions, especially at work.  Somedays I cry like a baby, it just happens and I cannot control it.  I miss the phonecalls, emails and facebook comments from my mom.  We used to speak everyday.  I cannot bear being in shopping malls now and hearing christmas carols play and seeing all the christmas decorations.  Christmas has gone from being the best time of year to the worst time of year, which is so sad.  I am not married and have no children, and if I do ever marry and have kids I will have to go through those experiences without my parents.  I feel very alone, like I don't really belong anywhere.  Luckily I do have a younger sister and I feel I need to be strong for her but it is difficult.

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Permalink Reply by sean threat on December 11, 2011 at 2:39pm

 

my main problem is depression the sadness anxiety and restlesness i try very hard to block her out but she pops right back in my mind one day i was doing pretty good felt like my normal self then the next it felt like i got hit with an atomic bomb i havent started seeing a therapist yet im thinkng bout it i have real bad panic attacks i went to the doctor and im healthy physically with the exception of high blood pressure but it mental emotional pain  that causses my distress if you have a facebook hit me up as as a friend my name is sean threat ifwhat state do you live in id like to talk to you if you dont mind

 

 

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Permalink Reply by Melissa Broome on December 11, 2011 at 4:24pm

Sean,

I do the same Anxiety panic...I go to sleep crying..wake myself up crying..It's awful. I have my ok days...But some days I have so much sadness from missing her that it overwhelms me.. You are not alone.

Melissa

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Permalink Reply by sean threat on December 11, 2011 at 7:34pm

thanx for your support melissa its good to know you not in it alone and people share the same struggle it helpls me to cope im working on getting better

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Permalink Reply by Sandra Nichols on January 5, 2012 at 9:48am

Sean, my mom passed in Nov 2011 and I am having problems coping with life in general. I'm reading grief/loss and coping books and in another 6 or 7 months I'm going to start going to a grief support group. Right now all I can do is survive. I am trying to stay away fronm the people that have not had major losses in their lives - I have nothing to say to them. I take a mild sedative from my doctor that I really need when I get extremely anxious (like last night). Family is good for support if they are near you too. Good luck Sean! I do know how you feel.  

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