Hi , how are you doing? My name is Juliana, I really want to have a good friendship with you. I have something very very important I really want to discuss with you alone okay. Please my dear, I want you to write me back through this my email address okay: juliana4love_rubaian@outlook.com

Hi Melissa, 

I have read a little about the loss of your mom from your profile, but I was wondering if you would be interested in sharing a little more of your story with me. I am part of a research team at Saint Louis University that is looking at end of life decision making and family communication. If you are interested in taking part in an interview, please let me know. 

Best,

Corinne Gibson

I would love to be part of your group!

It kills me too that I lost my mom, my best friend a few weeks ago to Pancreatic Cancer. I get up everyday with a hole in my heart. I would love to talk and find and give support to others.

Hello,

I'm Mary Norris and was wondering if I could have an invite to the group that you created called Having Issues Coping with life after mom has passed I lost my mom on Mary 27th of this year and I found that group to look very interesting and thought it would be helpful for me grieving for my mom and being able to move forward in my life.

Sincerely,

Mary Norris

Melissa, I was commenting and something happened, so you may get a half a message from me.  i'm starting over now in case you don't get any of it.  Thank you for inviting me to be your friend.  I am sorry it took so long to respond.  I haven't been on for a while.  i read some of your blog, and I'm sorry for the loss of your mom.  I know how you feel.  My mom was my best friend in the world.  Once she found out she was sick, she declined so fast.  The world changed too fast for me to be able to get used to it.  I saw your pictures.  I think you are the young woman with the medium brown hair.  You are very pretty, and you are so young to loose your mother already.  I am so sorry for your loss.  I hope you have had experiences since your mom died that you know are her letting you know she is okay.  And, it is okay for you to feel all of the ways you said you feel in your blog.  My brother-in-law just lost his nephew to violence with no warning, and my sister's emails sounded just like your blog.  It sucks, but that is how bad grief feels.  I'm so sorry you are going through all of this.

Thank you Melissa.  I tend to see the light side often, but believe me, when the darkness comes I immediately look for my flashlight.

I wish I did writings for a living.  Glad I make you laugh.

I do know what you mean about 'that feeling'.  It's really unexplaineable.  Can't really put into words.  

Although there is something very convincing about the experience of our dream visit.  I call it a dream visit cuz it is a dream and a visit in one.  Definitely not an ordinary everyday dream though.  You know what I mean!

I think you are amazing too and thank you for your friendship!

There is magic in the air.  Keep breathing....

Hug back,

Michael

Thank you Melissa...I am kinda lost regarding this sight. I do not know how to navigate. It does not help that I am a pc doorknob in training. I know about what you said about everyone being different. I keep wanting to run when I get here. I am scared...and I do not know if that is just me?I have so much anxiety. Is there like an open forum or something? You are my first person I spoke with. I am sorry if I am not doing the right thing and putting a burden on you.

Hi Melissa,

   I am so sorry for your loss as well. It is good to find others who are going through similar feelings. Even though the losses may be different and we go through the feelings at different times, the feelings themselves are very much the same. I hate that others have to experience the hurt and pain of loss, but I'm glad we have understanding and support and know that we are not alone. That helps tremendously. Hugs to you, Betsy