today started like a normal day,did some errands,banking,got my haircut,went to get an eye exam,did the grocery shopping,went to the pet store.Things that were always a 2 person job in our household,I did alone.the hair dresser said Vince you lost a lot of weight you feeling ok.Well I lost 20 lbs but I'm still 5 9 and weigh 215.I wish I had someone around to talk to about looking bad.Putting the groceries away to feeding the birds was a 2 person job in our house.Cooking dinner and cleaning up was a 2 person job.Everything we did was a 2 person job.I bought a 8' step ladder tonight and didn't have anyone to show it too.Tomorrow I have to get some new clothes,since I have lost alot of weight, that was always a 2 person job.I'm not angry or bitter with anyone just lonley,Don't know if this is a stage of grief or just something that is natural.We liked company but loved our privacy.This is about as private as is gets,Sad and lonely. Friends and family are starting to more on with thier lives while I still march foward at my pace.This week has put me on a new adventure on the emotional rollercoaster and I'm very depressed and lonely,but I'm thankful this week was better than last.Thanks for listening and God bless