today I got a call from my sons friend, they were in big brothers many years ago. he wanted us to go for dinner at his cottage on Friday. my heart sunk, I thanked him and said no,  I just cant right now , its to early, I don't want to ever go,  he was my shawns friend not mine, it just feels wrong for us to go. shawn was close to him, not us. I can feel shawn saying to me its wrong, and I have not seen any bunnies for two days, everyday shawn has sent them to me, it made me feel he was here, hurts not to see them.  please baby send me a bunny, so ill know you are with me.    mom