today is ten months since my son went away. so much pain, and tears. I miss him more then life and with I was with him. still empty and lonely and so very lost with out my shawn. I beg him every day to come to me, let me hear mom again, let me hear I love you again. I ask how much longer I have to live with out him, to look into those big beautiful brown  eyes and those melting dimples. to see his smile and hear his voice, I want so much to bring him home to me, or take my hand and take me to him.  why my only child, why my son, why the love of my life. im dieing more and more each day, ill be with you soon I hope.  love you forever my baby     mom