From no where came the tears. The pain of my loss, flashbacks, loneliness and deep sadness. I don't cry everyday but the tears and sadness is random. When it does hit me I cry for days. Then I may be good for days before it hits again. At this point I don't know what is worse, crying daily or the random bouts of depression and tears? I have never hurt so bad in my life. It has been 3 1/2 month since my loss and people don't want to hear about my loss anymore. They avoid you. So so sad.

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Comment by Lee on November 11, 2012 at 8:39am

Yes I can see people starting to forget about what I am going through - they have their own lives which I understand. I think I make people uncomfortable because they have run out of things to say. I want to tell them to not say anything - just let me cry - put an arm around my shoulders - pull me back from the edge.  

Comment by Phyllis Ebert on November 7, 2012 at 4:50pm

I totally understand where you are coming from.  My loss was 15 mos. ago and I still cry often and et  really depressed.  No one undestands and they tell me I need to "get over it".  Well, I ask, how are you supposed to do that when you loved so deeply and completely.  My prayer is that with time it will get easier, but I know it will never get better...............so lost and sad.

Comment by dream moon JO B on November 7, 2012 at 4:40pm

i will try and liht a candel and pray to god for evry 1 we hav lost 

Comment by Pamela Manning on November 7, 2012 at 4:32pm
Thank you Esther and jb for the nice reply. Thank you everyone for listening.
Comment by Pamela Manning on November 7, 2012 at 4:29pm
Today when I was crying so hard, I started praying to The Lord to release some of my pain, to help me cope with what I need to face and understand the things that I don't understand. I prayed to my husband. Before I knew it I wasn't crying no more. I looked up and said "thank you Jesus,"
Comment by Esther Ferrari on November 7, 2012 at 3:10pm

Dear Pamela, please know that I am with you in spirit...what you are going through is so so understandable. Such painful stuff...I know...three and a half months very recent too.

I find people are also just naturally busy with their own lives. Try rely soley on the Lord, he never grows feint, won't get weary...He is our burden bearer, and if needs be He will send people to be earthly, physical help too.

When Peter got so sick, I kind of knew people and doctors etc would not be able to help to the extent required, which was A LOT!!! (lol) So yes, I determined to just PRESS into the Lord, and get help from above. I could only pray, "Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit...HELP!~" Even now, am in the habit of, as a painful thought comes along (and there are millions...) then I just start calling on the name of Jesus to help me...So basically I call on His name throughout my waking hours...

I have experienced some good moments of relief, and truly believe the Lord is helping me, even though it feels very subtle...I have asked the Lord to really comfort you until you are back with your beloved husband. God bless you my new friend, love Esther xxx

Comment by dream moon JO B on November 7, 2012 at 2:56pm

i no how u feal pamela a lot of my so called mates hav turned ther bac on me even my best mate dont speak to me any more i no i hav fogot bdays this yer and other thngs but thy cant fogive my mumis so depresed even som of the family hav turnd againys us we got told we shud foget he ever exsisted his gon now wish woz so hurtfull my own nease saed to that to my mum her own grandmother she shud not of saed tht to her iv bean told im silly for speeking to my dads foto why did god take away evry 1 we love

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