everyday it hurts so bad,  I keep asking why? and I get no answers. I miss you more then life and I have never felt so much pain in my heart. I cry so much I can hardly see, my eyes are so swollen, I wonder where they come from. I keep telling my self when your beautiful heart is better you will come back to me, without that wishing I have nothing to live for. I would sell my soul if I could have one more day with you, to hold you see you hear your voice again, to hear mom again and to say how much I love you. you are my life and always will be, im waiting for you to take me  with you, im so ready to go. this pain im in is so unbearable everyday, im so tired like I have never been before, I want so bad to rest with you.  forever you are in my heart, my life my love my beautiful son,  love  you baby   mom