everyday my heart hurts, to breathe hurts. but the tears still fall each and every day. I feel so empty and so alone. I would give anything to hear  MOM, to hear shawns voice, to see that beautiful smile once more. I tell myself every day he will come home back to me. I feel without this ill lose it, ill break. im in such a deep dark place and there will never ever be light again. this is just a dark dream, and I cant wake up. I hope to hold him soon, I pray to. my shawn my love of my life my son. forever loved   mom