The Christmas holiday has come and gone, but it was just not the same.  Nobody wanted to say anything because no one wanted to start the crying, but everyone knew it.  We always have everyone over to spend Christmas eve with my husbands parents, then they stay the night and spend Christmas day with us.  It was not until my father in law was talking to my brother in law on the phone that the crying started.  I was trying my hardest not to ruin the holidays for everyone, but he was right, there was something missing.  My husband was bigger than life and always entertaining.  It feels good to know that I am not the only one who feels that way, but I wouldn't wish this on anyone.