I lost my twin

help me please

im 17. i lost my twin brother 4 years ago. i loved him so much.

i feel like somebody pulled the ground out from underneath my feet.

i know theres so much to smile for, and i try to be the best person i can be, to stay positive and work hard and help others. 

but im sick to my stomach with this pain. sometimes i hold my breath so i dont feel as bad even if just for a moment. i feel like i could weep into oblivion, like if i started crying i might never stop. 

i need help really bad and i keep reaching out but im becoming a broken record to the few people i open up to, they seem to feel even more helpless in the face of my pain than i do. 

i just miss him so bad, thats my twin, we learned this world together, im never gonna be as close to anybody as i was to him. i was there when it happened and my brain feels bruised because of it. nothing makes sense to me anymore, not even music, which is the only reason ive gotten this far. im so lost, please help me

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Comment by no name on July 24, 2013 at 10:42am

I cant imagine how hard this should be for you. I don't have twins or close brothers or sisters, but I do have people that have a special bond with me. I cant imagine how hard is to lose someone like that, however, I guess that since you two were so spiritually close, you have a part of him in your heart with you. And I guess that you can feel it at night when you go to sleep, so I guess this could help you to feel closer to him, and know that you are not alone.

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