So.. I really don't know how to feel happy. I walk around with a face all the time. Last night, I was joking around with my roommate we ended joking around and jumping around on her bed, while we were supposed to be making it. I ended up jumping on the bed so hard that I totally fell right off. Bam! hit the floor. I took her down with me and I guess, braced her fall.

I never laughed so hard in my life. On the floor rolling back and forth. I got up and still was gasping for air from the laughing. Then this sudden emotion came over me. I'm not supposed to laugh. I then started crying. It hurt to laugh, it really did, and I feel guilty for that. I shouldn't be laughing. I should be grieving my mother. It's only been 2 months.

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Comment by Natasha L. on October 11, 2010 at 9:24pm
No... you SHOULD be laughing. Laughter and good times help heal. My husband passed away about two weeks ago now... I've enjoyed the times I've been able to laugh.
Grieving takes time... it hurts and you'll cry. But the ability to laugh and feel happy... that's important too. Don't feel bad for laughing. Cherish the fact that even though you are in pain, there are still moments worth laughing at.

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