shawn as I placed a white rose with you, my tears were falling on your stone I felt nothing but darkness, emptiness. I hurt like ive never hurt before. oh god I miss you so bad, how can I go on shawn how? you are my life and nothing else matters, you are my only great love my beautiful son. I have never been so tired, so afraid. all I want is to be with you, to hold you and never let you go.  im waiting for you baby, please come to me please. I need you.  love you always and so deeply , forever mom