I am not grieving for one , but rather for three,

And the fog is sometimes so thick it surrounds me!

I never know when that wave will come again, whether I'm with the children or out with friends!

But rest assured it will come, and I won't have a clue which direction it came from!

The fear sometimes overwhelms me when I think of raising the girls on my own, but I'm so grateful for the love and support you have shown!

Time is going so slowly! I want to be a year… Continue

Tears have soaked my pillow since that dreaded night,

Longing to have you next to me and in my sight.

Sometimes the only thing I can do is breathe,

And cry and shout and mourn and grieve!

Your baby girl asks me questions that I sometimes don't have the answers to,

But for me I just have to keep pushing through!

Your big girl often points to that special star at night,

And for me it's the glow of the burning candle light.

The girls and I are missing you so… Continue

This past weekend my girls and I went to go visit daddy's grave. I did not have the girls go to the graveyard service on the day I buried my husband December 19th, but felt it was time. It is a very confusing journey for a 5 year old. My other child is 8 with special needs and non verbal. I sometimes don't have answers for her questions! There is no manual for this! The one question that stands out in my mind is "mommy? How come daddy was taken away from us so soon?" It's nothing but a knife to… Continue

Does anyone else have a hard time listening to advice from someone who hasn't lost anyone in their family? Except for maybe an 85 year old Aunt? I know people mean well, but sometimes I just don't have the energy to listen, nor the heart to say anything!

I've been given this ticket to ride the roller coaster! I didn't choose this ride! Ok? So I'm going to ride this fucking ride! I'm going to pull up my big girl panties, I'm going to tighten my damn seatbelt, I'm going to adjust my shoulder strap....and I'm going to HOLD ON with my hands, until my fingers turn white and go numb! Then? When I can't hold on anymore with my hands? I will brace my knees along the edge of my bucket seat and I will lock my legs in! Because you know why??? I DONT HAVE… Continue