I am not grieving for one , but rather for three,
And the fog is sometimes so thick it surrounds me!
I never know when that wave will come again, whether I'm with the children or out with friends!
But rest assured it will come, and I won't have a clue which direction it came from!
The fear sometimes overwhelms me when I think of raising the girls on my own, but I'm so grateful for the love and support you have shown!
Time is going so slowly! I want to be a year ahead!
But there are days I'm burdened with sadness I can't even get out of bed!
And so I must live each moment and see it through, and learn to accept the fact we have to live without you!
Although if you give me signs that you are always near, it will lessen my doubt, my uncertainty and my fear!