How do you go from being so sad life doesn't seem worth going on one day and the next you find happiness in the world?  I don't understand this feeling.  I miss my husband so much, I miss the sound of his voice, the feel of his hands as he holds mine, I miss his silliness, his sense of humor, even his messiness. 

This week has been better than last, but I know that that will not last.  Next week is the 2nd anniversary of his death, I know it's going to be a tough week.  Last year my…

How do you convince people that it actually takes time to get past this grief, not their time, my time?  I know some people have walked away because they just don't know how to deal with me and my sadness.  How can I be happy one minute and want to crawl into the closet and hide the next?  I'm living in the house we lived in together for 27 years.  I don't have the heart to sell and move, nor do I want to, so everything about it reminds me of him.  I'm so glad for that, but also so sad.  I…

I'm coming up on the two year anniversary of my husbands death, why does it only feel like last week.  He was my life for 43 years, my high school boy friend, that crazy good looking boy that so many girls liked, but he liked me.  From the minute he asked me to dance at a high school dance, I knew he was the one for me.  I don't think he knew that, haha.  It was another two months before we saw each other again and from that point on, we…