How do you go from being so sad life doesn't seem worth going on one day and the next you find happiness in the world?  I don't understand this feeling.  I miss my husband so much, I miss the sound of his voice, the feel of his hands as he holds mine, I miss his silliness, his sense of humor, even his messiness. 

This week has been better than last, but I know that that will not last.  Next week is the 2nd anniversary of his death, I know it's going to be a tough week.  Last year my friend took me down to Tucson to Mission San Xavier del Bac.  I don't believe in organized religion, but I do believe and I believe in the power of prayer.  I sat in the chapel and spoke to Dave, I said a prayer and the peace that surrounded me was amazing.  I wish I could go back down this year, but this year I'll be in an office, doing training for a job that I'm not sure I want, with people I barely know.  How will I make it thru that day?