Ok, I am feeling the christmas depression right now. The last few days I have been moping around, sleeping as much as I can, not wanting to leave the house. I have not purchased the first gift or even went shopping. I am trying sooooo hard not to make this a sad time for my kids, but I am so sad right now. How is everyone else doing with the upcoming Holiday?

"When you go through the tumbler of life, you come out crushed or polished."

-- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross (1981)

Winter's so decorative and colorful.

The frost designs on the house windows.

Branches of trees and bushes coated in white.

Icicles dripping water from the sun's warmth.

Christmas lights in various colors almost appear psychedelic at night.

You get so cold your skin changes colors.

And your dogs color your snow covered lawn in yellow.

- Michael

Getting through each day is so hard. My Mom passed away suddenly on Nov. 18, 2011... I am in total shock still. How the heck could a relatively healthy, active woman be taken away from me, my Dad, siblings, my kids, .... ?? This is not fair and I feel angry.

Really stressed. A month ago, my attorney said to get the house on the market asap. I am one person trying to do it all. House & car have to go through probate before I can sell them. I'm so tired of this. All I want is a job & a simple life. People are hesitant to hire me because of my age, two years unemployed/being a full time caretaker. No income, no life insurance, & the bill collectors are calling. I'm worried that I will be out on the street. Happy Holidays to me.…

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I took 2 grandsons to our local boys hockey game tonight.  My granddaughter was working at it and we were having a sleepover anyway so it was logical to go.  It was a good game, home team won, hurray!  But someone was so evidently missing from the seat beside me.  Oh how it hurts to be doing these things without him.  The grandsons should have had their Papa there cheering as loudly as they were or as he was prone to do, cheering for the opposing team just to get a rise out of them.  I know…

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Today it snowed here in Omaha, I was walking on a snow covered asphalt trail, and when I stopped to look behind me, I saw about 100 or so of my footprints...I thought, those are in the past.  I looked down at my feet and then along the path ahead of me, and it was pure white, no prints at all.  That path, that pure one is the now and future, the one behind me is the past, I said to myself.  So, i just kept on going, thinking about how far I have come from bad grief and into better grief.  We…

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Well I haven't been on here for a long time.can't belive she is gone.I feel sick to my stomach alot and depressed but continue to put 1 foot in front of the other. I do go to support groups with my husband at Hospice.That also helps but I fell nothing will ever take away the saddness I have in my heart..