I know in my heart you are gone but it is so easier to pretend you are working out of town.  Instead of facing reality that you are never coming back.  Having to deal with the loss of you is no way to explain.  Then I have one acting out cause he feels he lost a dad that day and I dont know how to put him back on the right track.  Then I have one that is beside herself and has hit rock bottom cause in all her life you was the man that stepped up to be her dad where everyone including her…

Billy today is 16 days you have been gone.  No it is not any easier.  I'm still so angry and hurt by all this.  You see you were my world at home and work even though you didn't think so at times.  I'm angry cause I knew you went somewhere Saturday and purchased your whatever the heck it was(dope) and i didn't say anything I didn't even mention it. I found your phone and saw all the text of you purchasing it and from who this made me even angrier. I called this person and confronted them and…