Am i alone? I certainly feel it. Along with an extreme amount of guilt for not being able to help my dad when he was dying, anger at my sister for hiding downstairs while it was happening. Regret that my older brother and sister hadn't seen him for a month. Confusion that i had a normal conversation with him, said i love you and goodnight, and half an hour later he was gone.
All of these feelings that i have had before in other circumstances, yet personifed by a thousand.
I need help.

6 months ago my dad died suddenly of a heart attack. Only me and my younger sister were in the house at the time. We were both in our rooms when we heard a crash out on the landing, and went out to see on the floor. I cant properly remember the next hour or so, but i remember sending my sister to ring for help, while i tried to resusitate him. People keep telling me that unless the ambulance there straight away then there is hardly any chance of success. I dont know whether to believe them or… Continue