5/15/15: I went to bed. I missed Nick so much. A friend of mine wanted to go out but I just couldn't that day. It was a Friday night. I dint have it in me. So I put on Nicks shirt and grabbed his sheet that his sister gave him when he was 18. I didn't cover myself up with it and just held it and I fell asleep.

Then I had the most amazing dream I have ever had. The hills were so beautiful and green. It was crowded with people. I was walking along when I saw Nick. He was talking to a…

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5/9/15: I woke up extremely early today to drive to my sons tournament. I grabbed Nicks necklace from where I put it every night on his picture frame. Packed the car and continued on to our two hour drive. Half way through the trip my son asked me to stop to use the restroom. I stopped at as gas station and as I usually do I was playing with Nicks necklace around my neck as I thought about him. My son came out and we continued with the trip.



20 minutes later as I was driving I went… Continue

I have never really liked to talk about it and I have never certainly wrote about it but my very first big loss was my sister. Her name was Claudia. Claudia was the youngest of 3. I was the oldest. She was energetic and very loving.

Claudia was only 4 years old when she passed away. I was 10 years old. The last memory I have of my sister is her having a seizure in our dads arms. Then the paramedics arrived to our house. They said her temperature was at 200 degrees. She was taken to…

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