I watered the morning glories in the butterfly garden I started in the spring. It won't be long until they are blooming beautiful blue breakfast plates with soft pink throats. I planted them because they are Jack's favorite flower. While I was talking to Jack's big sister this evening, I told her about the little garden and she asked, "Do you think he knows?"



"About the garden?" I want to believe that he does.



"Well. That, yes. But. Do you think he knows how much I miss… Continue

For some reason, this just spoke to me. Maybe it's the phrase "Red-Sea-place in your life", maybe it's the knowledge that I'm in that place where I just have to walk through this grief.



Thought some of you might like this, too.





When you come to the Red-Sea-place in your life,

When, in spite of all you can do,

There is no way round, there is no way back,

There is no other way but through:





Then know God with a soul serene,

And the… Continue

Jack's older sister, Georgie, called me with the news that she and Jonathan will be having Baby #2 in 35 weeks. If they counted right, New Baby will be here near Jack's birthday in December. Jack would have been thrilled to have a new niece or nephew. He was a super-hero to Old Baby, Sophia, who reached up her 2 year old arms to signal that she was ready for a ride on his shoulders. She held on to his hair and yelled, "Yee-haw!" Off he'd lope, whinnying every few steps.



I'm thankful… Continue

It was a long April Fool's Day yesterday. From the time he was a toddler, Jack thought that April Fool's Day was the best fun ever! When he was 2, he used the broom to open the garage door and bounced out from the side of the house with a grin and a loud, "Apil foo's, mommy!" after I ran out of the house in a panic. I learned to never use the sugar or salt without checking, to view meals cooked by Jack on his sacred holiday with suspicion, to let the shower run for a bit without blindly… Continue