I know in my heart you are gone but it is so easier to pretend you are working out of town.  Instead of facing reality that you are never coming back.  Having to deal with the loss of you is no way to explain.  Then I have one acting out cause he feels he lost a dad that day and I dont know how to put him back on the right track.  Then I have one that is beside herself and has hit rock bottom cause in all her life you was the man that stepped up to be her dad where everyone including her…

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Billy today is 16 days you have been gone.  No it is not any easier.  I'm still so angry and hurt by all this.  You see you were my world at home and work even though you didn't think so at times.  I'm angry cause I knew you went somewhere Saturday and purchased your whatever the heck it was(dope) and i didn't say anything I didn't even mention it. I found your phone and saw all the text of you purchasing it and from who this made me even angrier. I called this person and confronted them and…

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Billy today I went for my first counseling session. It was hard but I talked it out you I'm blaming myself for not talking to you that day about what I suspected. If I would have would you still be here could I have changed your mind. I have so much frustration about this be cause I'm hurt, feel abandoned, numb, just going through the motions to get through the day. I'm scared and I want to block it all out and pretend your still here. If I don't face reality it's not real. I know everything… Continue

William(Billy) the love of my life you left us so suddenly.  I know I have your memories and we had some great ones.  As i sit here watching the cursor on my computer blink Im lost I have no words.  Billy i know I got to spend some great years with you and I do cherish them.  Your laugh was infectious with many Cajun stories to tell.  But you see on October 16th 2016 you stole half of me.

I found you the way I never hoped to see you and Cas was with me.  We had to deal with the…

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