I'm a little off. Tired a lot. tomorrow February 2nd is my boyfriend's birthday. It's going to be a killer on his parents who lost their only child and his friends On me I'm going to be having a very hard time with coping. As for feeling daze, that's normal. It's not fun but it's part of the grieving process. It's good like I said to talk to people. I talk to a psychologist, doctor, mental health nurse and 2 priest. Plus to his parents and to his friends, just so I don't fall apart and help the parents whenever I can when I able to cope a bit without falling apart. It's not going to bring him back but it help with the feelings I have and the tormented feeling Iget when I think of the last night. But you also need to say positive. If you also like to talk, I have my ear open. They say it gets better to cope as the days go on but I think that he will never be that but to try to go on with daily living forward, is a way in itself a coping strategy.