It's nearly been 4 months since all this happened :(. It's unbelievable it has been that long, still feels like September to me. I definately know what you mean about wondering if your heart will ever heal again. I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone, but cant imagine spending it with anyone else. A few months ago I was talking to a lady who lost her parnter unexpectedly and 6 years on she has meet a new man who she wants to marry, she was an inspiration but I can't help but think that it's not going to be the same for me. My email address is lizbug_25@hotmail, if you would like to email me through that