I am a singer and graphic designer but have been only working part time since my son was born. I dedicated my life to making sure his was good, when he was 13 he was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease and has suffered greatly the last few years with the disease and it's complications. Ironically he was doing so much better, then a senseless way to die. I am devastated.
About my Loss:
We lost our 17 year old son, Daniel in a tragic car accident three weeks ago. He was our only child.
I am so sorry for loss as words cannot really help with your pain and suffer. But do know this, many of us have been on the dark side of a loss and most us have made it through the suffering. I can only offer you words of sympathy.
Connie, first of all what a beautiful young man.....I am so sorry to hear about your loss .... To me it is so unreal and painful to say loss it's just a horrible word... My son also loved to make music within weeks of the accident , my son and his friends had finally named their band and had taken pictures which I saw after the fact,,, he was so pure a week before he had taken a friend to a pawn shop to ask him to help pick out a good bass guitar to get ( he didn't really play bass) but he played everything he had four guitars drums keyboards and violin anyways they found a really nice one and later that night he bought it and gave it to that friend for his birthday ...he took all his paycheck and then some...he loved sports he was also on the basketball team four all of his years in high school... He did tutoring after school in fact he and his friends started the program....he was in the gifted programs since first grade ... He was my angel....now it is extremely hard to talk about him , I miss him so much..,,I am so sorry to hear of your loss because I do understand..,,it has been a year it feels like yesterday,,,text me anytime if you just need an ear .....Michelle
Hi Connie. I just want to check in on you and lift you up in love and comfort. Let us know how you're doing. I'm hanging in here... still in shock. But I'm still here.
Connie I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my only son, Zach, Sept. 3rd, 2011 in a tragic accident, he fell from a waterfall. My main advice to you is just take things one day at a time, one second at a time. I can't think about tomorrow but I can do this minute. One thing that helped me is knowing that there were so many people out there praying for me and my family, and who continue to pray for us.I really don't think I would have been able to go on without those prayers. I continue to ask God for help, for I know that I can't do this alone. I am here for you any time. You are in my prayers. Hugs. Robin
Connie, My only child died at the age 23 on January 22 2013, I miss him so much and the pain is indescribable. I feel like I can't go on anymore and people just don't understand. I am so sorry for your loss as I know what you are going thru.
It will be 6 months soon.....Nothing changed..My son still will not come home..Everyone moving on without him. They forgot his part-time jobs. They meaning people forgot what color truck he drove. They forgot how nice he was and helpful. Now...Everyone forgot but me and his Daddy...sisters, immediate family member...He was not famous to anyone but US,,,,,,My only son..sometimes I am angry that he left the house that day.
Connie i feel your pain,i to lost a son to cancer i didn't even know he had he was gone in 2 weeks i read his autopsy report and cried the cancer was rare cure rate was 37% not good odds he was a wonderful beautiful boy or should i say man but mentally he was 15.i too miss him so it never goes away it don't get easier but i too believe god had a plan for my son i to am in end stages of my sickness and worried alot about who would care for him,i believe god help in my decision,i would of done any thing to take his place cause i was sicker i thought but Connie just know the love you shared will always be there no one can take that away god be with you in your time of need
Connie.. I lost my son in a car accident in Dec 2011..I can understand ur pain as I also just want my sweetheart to walk in a grin n say howdy ... he was in dubai where he was working in gulf petrochem-- imagine 6 of then were getting back from luunch , the car was being driven by his friend-- all were friends, it skidded and his friend pressed the accelerator instead of the brake and the car turned turtle 3, 4 times and i lost my baby on the spot -- another senior colleague also dies and the other 4 were unhurt... god's way ... he took the bestest boy a mom could have-- leater i read somewhere -- god did not take ... he received them-- so send him love all the time and i feel connected to him every single minute-- you take care and love to u and ur family..
What a remarkable person you are. And, how tuned in to the spiritual. You are an inspiration. Please join us in the evenings on Chat, there is a member there going thru the very same loss, and it would be helpful to both of you to share.
Our children are a part of us and it hurts to know others are being reckless and a total disregard for another persons precious life. The driver is here and alive. As the girl my son was with is still here and yes she was reckless too. It often makes us angry, and here that don't sound selfish...just human
Connie,
I was thinking about you today and just wanted to say hi and I hope your doing ok,,,,, it has now been two years this week and it still doesn't seen true or right.... The other boy still hasn't contacted me to even say sorry for what he has done to me or my family...how horrible to not man up to such a bad mistake...I miss my son more every day ... Just to hear or see him again... He was great.... I did see a few of his friends on the date and they are kinda moving forward but I see their pain also...I hope you are well..
Hugs, Michelle
Connie-I'm so sorry for your loss of Daniel. I know the heartache only to well and still after six years flip out and want to go search the universe for Kaitlin, which is a bit embarassing, but at least there are those of us that know the feelings and do not judge or say get over it. Thank you for posting me a message of hope I appreciated it so.
Connie, thank you. I too am very sorry for your loss. It's not fair to any of us. Especially to our children. They had only just begun.
I still can't believe this has happened. Today is a hard day for me for some reason. I'm very emotional today. I just feel so alone. I'm so scared.
My heart also goes out to you & I TOOO send you tight hugs.
Connie, thanks so much for your kind comments. I am so sorry to hear about your son as well. What a sadness to bear. :-(. I am missing the guys, and it is difficult without the support of a partner, but I am fortunate in friends and family, and I am glad to have found this site. Many hugs to you.
connie i saw u posted 2 block a person its postng digustng stuff on hear thnx 2 u i bloket him it hapend 2 me on anther sitee it did its why i set all my profles 2 privet on evry site i go on
iv reported him i hav i thng most of ths website has
he shud be lockt up for postng stuff lk ths on hear
I've been really struggling with the loss of my only child, Michael 31 from an accidental overdose. It seems like time is working against me because lately I've been tearing up quite a bit. Does it get any easier - do you still think about your loved one every minute of the day or do you get breaks? I noticed you said it will be 2 years on December 1st. I'm also told that the second year is even tougher than the first. I'm just so so heartbroken over my loss that I can't imagine the rest of my life will be void of my Michael. Thanks for sharing Connie,
Connie, just saw your comment...I am just so tired...the last court date I took three of my anti-anxiety meds instead of the normal one dosage...I finally had to step out of the room...did you ever contact that one person who you thought had more information about your son's accident?
Connie, your comments about the spirit living on touched my heart. I also have had some extrasensory experiences but am frightened by them. They usually come in the way of a warning. I hate that so many of the parents in our group lost their children to substance abuse and I seldom post anything because I don't want to cause anyone more pain. My situation is so different than most...my son was murdered in a robbery where he worked by a man needing money to buy more drugs. Like every other mother, I miss him more than words can express.
Connie, wow, that is even longer out than ours. It is so stressful...I am fearful of going into court and hearing the other side drag my son through the mud, Jesse was such incredible good person, versus the loser girl that ran him over. I don't know how you are holding out emotionally. Do you have a private attorney representing you or the DA?
Thank You for your condolences regarding my situation. I am very sorry that you lost your son . I truly know how you feel because I have been living a nightmare every day since October when my beautiful wife suddenly became an angel.Hold onto the good memories and try to live life with spirit.It will not be easy to move forward but you have support here.Life does and will go on for you .Feel free to communicate with me at any time for I am fully aware what you are going through right now ....
Connie. I don't always read the posts of losing a child but for some reason I just hit on yours and felt like you are doing something very constructive and looked to see how your son had died. Very sad that he was taken the way he was. I tended to someone who had Crohns a long time ago and that is a horribly painful disease and with it under control and then lose him senselessly is devastating.
What I found so interesting about your post was the reference to 11:11. I found for awhile consistently for about a month the same thing had been popping up to me and frequently enough that it was hard to ignore. Very weird. I finally googled it it said it was a new beginning. It wasn't specific as to who was supposed to have the new beginning although it was pointing a bit to the "survivor" and as such I wasn't feeling it. But I still see it a lot. Not as much but a lot. If it does mean they are trying to contact us to let us know they are ok then it helps me feel a bit better. I will see various iterations of the 1's. 10:11, 11:01, etc.
Just now I went through another of one of my major meltdowns and I sometimes record them in iPhoto booth as I hope that someday I can rewind and see I am doing better or if I die maybe others will understand what this pain is like. I am at a mark in time though that I do not see any kind of light as I don't feel like I am getting any better. If anything the breakdowns are fewer but so much more intense. Reality is wearing me out. My spirit was broken when my husband died and now without his guiding light I am so lost. I just don't know how to do this anymore. I am totally alone. But maybe that 11:11 was trying to let me know he is somewhere. I will try to hang on that hope.
Connie, thank you for your kindness. Its's so hard to be nice when our world seems so cruel. The passing of my son has certainly made me bitter, angry and even sometimes mean. Thank you again. You and so many others have shown me that there are kind people still left in this world. Sending comforting hugs.
Connie, thank you for your kind and caring comment. I am so sorry for what you have also had to go through. Not that I want to be connected to these pages but I am also very, very grateful. It's heartbreaking to know that so many others are suffering the passing of their children... sigh
David A
Connie,
I am so sorry for loss as words cannot really help with your pain and suffer. But do know this, many of us have been on the dark side of a loss and most us have made it through the suffering. I can only offer you words of sympathy.
Take care,
David
Jan 2, 2013
Michelle W
Jan 3, 2013
DH
Hi Connie. I just want to check in on you and lift you up in love and comfort. Let us know how you're doing. I'm hanging in here... still in shock. But I'm still here.
Jan 11, 2013
Robin Jone
Connie I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my only son, Zach, Sept. 3rd, 2011 in a tragic accident, he fell from a waterfall. My main advice to you is just take things one day at a time, one second at a time. I can't think about tomorrow but I can do this minute. One thing that helped me is knowing that there were so many people out there praying for me and my family, and who continue to pray for us.I really don't think I would have been able to go on without those prayers. I continue to ask God for help, for I know that I can't do this alone. I am here for you any time. You are in my prayers. Hugs. Robin
Jan 16, 2013
Sue Waxman
Connie,
I am so sorry about your son. I believe God has a plan for every one of us. Your son taught you what while he was here? Sue
Jan 31, 2013
Shelley
Connie, My only child died at the age 23 on January 22 2013, I miss him so much and the pain is indescribable. I feel like I can't go on anymore and people just don't understand. I am so sorry for your loss as I know what you are going thru.
Feb 7, 2013
Bern
It will be 6 months soon.....Nothing changed..My son still will not come home..Everyone moving on without him. They forgot his part-time jobs. They meaning people forgot what color truck he drove. They forgot how nice he was and helpful. Now...Everyone forgot but me and his Daddy...sisters, immediate family member...He was not famous to anyone but US,,,,,,My only son..sometimes I am angry that he left the house that day.
Mar 26, 2013
linda hernandez
Connie i feel your pain,i to lost a son to cancer i didn't even know he had he was gone in 2 weeks i read his autopsy report and cried the cancer was rare cure rate was 37% not good odds he was a wonderful beautiful boy or should i say man but mentally he was 15.i too miss him so it never goes away it don't get easier but i too believe god had a plan for my son i to am in end stages of my sickness and worried alot about who would care for him,i believe god help in my decision,i would of done any thing to take his place cause i was sicker i thought but Connie just know the love you shared will always be there no one can take that away god be with you in your time of need
Apr 13, 2013
Vasanthi S
Connie.. I lost my son in a car accident in Dec 2011..I can understand ur pain as I also just want my sweetheart to walk in a grin n say howdy ... he was in dubai where he was working in gulf petrochem-- imagine 6 of then were getting back from luunch , the car was being driven by his friend-- all were friends, it skidded and his friend pressed the accelerator instead of the brake and the car turned turtle 3, 4 times and i lost my baby on the spot -- another senior colleague also dies and the other 4 were unhurt... god's way ... he took the bestest boy a mom could have-- leater i read somewhere -- god did not take ... he received them-- so send him love all the time and i feel connected to him every single minute-- you take care and love to u and ur family..
Jun 4, 2013
Patricia Hoffman
Thank You Connie, I just dont know what to do, I dont think I can get though this.. :(
Jun 4, 2013
Martha
Dear Connie:
What a remarkable person you are. And, how tuned in to the spiritual. You are an inspiration. Please join us in the evenings on Chat, there is a member there going thru the very same loss, and it would be helpful to both of you to share.
May God give you strength today,
Martha
Jul 26, 2013
Bern
Thank you for the song. I enjoyed it Connie. Sure we shared the hard tears as we listen and missed our son's.
Aug 3, 2013
Bern
Our children are a part of us and it hurts to know others are being reckless and a total disregard for another persons precious life. The driver is here and alive. As the girl my son was with is still here and yes she was reckless too. It often makes us angry, and here that don't sound selfish...just human
Aug 13, 2013
Judy Edwards
Thank you for becoming a friend I appreciate it very much. Judy Edwards
Aug 30, 2013
Bern
Connie will light a candle for Daniel from Theodore, Alabama 36582. We are Central Time here. Currently it is 10:48 pm
Nov 27, 2013
Michelle W
I was thinking about you today and just wanted to say hi and I hope your doing ok,,,,, it has now been two years this week and it still doesn't seen true or right.... The other boy still hasn't contacted me to even say sorry for what he has done to me or my family...how horrible to not man up to such a bad mistake...I miss my son more every day ... Just to hear or see him again... He was great.... I did see a few of his friends on the date and they are kinda moving forward but I see their pain also...I hope you are well..
Hugs, Michelle
Dec 1, 2013
Michelle
Apr 28, 2014
dominique
Thanks Connie you give me hope and inspiration to not be so angry about this with time i suppose it will get easier but its just so raw now.
Jul 10, 2014
Melissa T
Jul 27, 2014
Melissa T
Jul 27, 2014
Melissa T
Connie-I'm so sorry for your loss of Daniel. I know the heartache only to well and still after six years flip out and want to go search the universe for Kaitlin, which is a bit embarassing, but at least there are those of us that know the feelings and do not judge or say get over it. Thank you for posting me a message of hope I appreciated it so.
Thanks Melissa
Jul 27, 2014
Rachel
I still can't believe this has happened. Today is a hard day for me for some reason. I'm very emotional today. I just feel so alone. I'm so scared.
My heart also goes out to you & I TOOO send you tight hugs.
Aug 9, 2014
Sigrid
Aug 9, 2014
dream moon JO B
connie i saw u posted 2 block a person its postng digustng stuff on hear thnx 2 u i bloket him it hapend 2 me on anther sitee it did its why i set all my profles 2 privet on evry site i go on
iv reported him i hav i thng most of ths website has
he shud be lockt up for postng stuff lk ths on hear
thnx for givng me idea 2 blok ths creap
Oct 24, 2014
Gale Brunault
Hi Connie,
I've been really struggling with the loss of my only child, Michael 31 from an accidental overdose. It seems like time is working against me because lately I've been tearing up quite a bit. Does it get any easier - do you still think about your loved one every minute of the day or do you get breaks? I noticed you said it will be 2 years on December 1st. I'm also told that the second year is even tougher than the first. I'm just so so heartbroken over my loss that I can't imagine the rest of my life will be void of my Michael. Thanks for sharing Connie,
Gale
Nov 19, 2014
Jesse's Mom
Connie, just saw your comment...I am just so tired...the last court date I took three of my anti-anxiety meds instead of the normal one dosage...I finally had to step out of the room...did you ever contact that one person who you thought had more information about your son's accident?
Jan 1, 2015
Liz N
Connie, your comments about the spirit living on touched my heart. I also have had some extrasensory experiences but am frightened by them. They usually come in the way of a warning. I hate that so many of the parents in our group lost their children to substance abuse and I seldom post anything because I don't want to cause anyone more pain. My situation is so different than most...my son was murdered in a robbery where he worked by a man needing money to buy more drugs. Like every other mother, I miss him more than words can express.
Feb 16, 2015
Jesse's Mom
Connie, wow, that is even longer out than ours. It is so stressful...I am fearful of going into court and hearing the other side drag my son through the mud, Jesse was such incredible good person, versus the loser girl that ran him over. I don't know how you are holding out emotionally. Do you have a private attorney representing you or the DA?
Feb 16, 2015
PJ ESPO
Hi Connie
Thank You for your condolences regarding my situation. I am very sorry that you lost your son . I truly know how you feel because I have been living a nightmare every day since October when my beautiful wife suddenly became an angel.Hold onto the good memories and try to live life with spirit.It will not be easy to move forward but you have support here.Life does and will go on for you .Feel free to communicate with me at any time for I am fully aware what you are going through right now ....
Feb 25, 2015
haniyyah
Mar 9, 2015
Rj
Mar 24, 2015
morgan
Connie. I don't always read the posts of losing a child but for some reason I just hit on yours and felt like you are doing something very constructive and looked to see how your son had died. Very sad that he was taken the way he was. I tended to someone who had Crohns a long time ago and that is a horribly painful disease and with it under control and then lose him senselessly is devastating.
What I found so interesting about your post was the reference to 11:11. I found for awhile consistently for about a month the same thing had been popping up to me and frequently enough that it was hard to ignore. Very weird. I finally googled it it said it was a new beginning. It wasn't specific as to who was supposed to have the new beginning although it was pointing a bit to the "survivor" and as such I wasn't feeling it. But I still see it a lot. Not as much but a lot. If it does mean they are trying to contact us to let us know they are ok then it helps me feel a bit better. I will see various iterations of the 1's. 10:11, 11:01, etc.
Just now I went through another of one of my major meltdowns and I sometimes record them in iPhoto booth as I hope that someday I can rewind and see I am doing better or if I die maybe others will understand what this pain is like. I am at a mark in time though that I do not see any kind of light as I don't feel like I am getting any better. If anything the breakdowns are fewer but so much more intense. Reality is wearing me out. My spirit was broken when my husband died and now without his guiding light I am so lost. I just don't know how to do this anymore. I am totally alone. But maybe that 11:11 was trying to let me know he is somewhere. I will try to hang on that hope.
Apr 8, 2015
Toni Jones
Connie, thank you for your kindness. Its's so hard to be nice when our world seems so cruel. The passing of my son has certainly made me bitter, angry and even sometimes mean. Thank you again. You and so many others have shown me that there are kind people still left in this world. Sending comforting hugs.
Jun 9, 2015
Gita KG
Connie, thank you for your kind and caring comment. I am so sorry for what you have also had to go through. Not that I want to be connected to these pages but I am also very, very grateful. It's heartbreaking to know that so many others are suffering the passing of their children... sigh
Jul 8, 2015