Judy Edwards

Female

Longview, TX

United States

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About Me:
I'm a 51 year old woman. On May the 1st, 2013, I lost my 32 year old son. His name was Matthew Edwards. We all live in East Texas. Me in Longview and my son in Gilmer. Matt was my only son. At age 29 he granted me with a grandson Matthew Jr. was born then, the next year Christopher Ray arrived in Dec 2010.

So I was left with two wonderful grand babies.
About my Loss:
Well it started in 2011 after a long bout of COPD with my father we last him that year and my grieving began. I was getting close to my normal
living when on April 31,2013, my sons girlfriends mother shows up at my home to tell me that somehow thru the sheriff office in Upshur county they found a emergency number for her as Matthew contact. She came to tell me he'd been care-flighted to Tyler in critical condition. I raced to get to the hospital.after they got into ICU and stable as they could get him. He had pneumonia, Hepatitis C,meth Hy-do- codeine and pot were also in his system. His temp had reach 110 degrees so as I am disable from a wreck in 1998. I raced back home to grab a few things so i could be at hospital with him till he got to come home..The hospital called me as I was on way home and told to return to the hospital Matthew had taken a turn for the worse. So to make a long story short we lost him at 12:40 pm the next day he never remain conscience. So my grieving began again this time it seem 100 times worse than my dad lose. I laid in bed for 3 weeks not moving from the bed except to use the restroom. It's 3 months later and I'm still in bad shape.

Comment Wall:

  • Ammy

    So sorry for your loss Judy.  We all know your pain.  Please post on the wall for Missing my Son or Daughter…  That is where most of the communication takes place.

    I have been a member for almost 3 years and it saddens me each time I see a new name appear.  The road is hard, but you can do this.  Take it slow, and allow yourself to grieve as necessary.  You also need to take care of yourself.  

    I know how hard it is with the grandchildren.  My son's daughter was just 21 months when she lost her Daddy and it was so very hard for her.  She still has days when she is saddened and stressed as I think she is forgetting and  she doesn't want to.  She will get out pictures to look at.  Sometimes it helps and sometimes it makes it worse.  They need to be able to grieve also and at their own pace.  Anger and nastiness can be a part of it.

    Just some of what I have experienced by going through this.  Please feel free to write/say whatever you are feeling.  No one judges here.

    Sending a cyber (((hug))) to you.  Wish it could be something to ease your pain, but I know it can't.  Again, I am so very sorry for you and your family.   

    Aug 19, 2013

  • Connie K

    JUdy

     I am so sorry for your loss. I hope we can all be of help to each other here.Also you might want to see if there's a Compassionate friends group in your area, for people who have lost children and siblings.  Sending you prayers and hugs.

    Aug 19, 2013

  • Lynn Williams

    Judy I haven't seen your posts recently and just wanted to say i am thinking of you and wondering how you are holding up.  We sure do become an extended family on this site.  I am still going day by day and wonder how I can go on.  

    Hugs Lynn

    Dec 10, 2013