thank you for your support but the thing that is killing me is when  diana was sick she told me she didn't want to die and i said she wasn't going to but i knew it was a matter of time and the second thing is signing the dnr papers everyday i wake up wishing she was there and on top of that is watching mom die in front of me there is a bunch of things i want to get off my chest but the thing is  is this if i let it out i feel i will let them down

hi sigrid how are you doing i have this over and over but what i feel is it iseve my fauilt that they are not here  i wish they were here with me not in spirit but everything that went on leaning to their passing that is on me

sigrid  i really sorry for your loss and i'm sorry for bothering you because i know what you are going though hearing you are the last one to hear about their passing makes me very upset you should of been the first one's to be nortifed i'm so sorry