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Comment by Connie K on February 10, 2016 at 12:29pm

I am sick with a bad cold and it makes me feel so out of control. I can't keep it all together when I feel this way. Last week was both mines and my husbands birthdays. I always feel so guilty getting to have a birthday. Those times really drive home the truth of this life. Daniel is never coming home. I still can't deal with everything in his room. It's getting hard to be in my house but right now we can not move. I need to change my house, maybe redecorate. Make his room the music room. I know he'd love that. But I have no energy, no motivation. I feel stuck and in despair. But I know he lives on and I hear him say "I'm right here. Don't give up."  I have faith in a divine power so I keep going but time seems to have no meaning. I cannot believe it has been over 3 years. I feel stuck in that moment I found out he was gone. Day to day life is so tough. I am trying to learn from it all and change those things about myself that I regret. Giving service to others helps - but when you are sick it's hard to do that. Just needed to vent today - feeling so down. Hugs to everyone

Comment by Teresa D. on February 10, 2016 at 8:38am

Tammy all I can tell you is it is a slow process and in time you will find yourself moving to a different place.

Sharon...Medication, mediums etc....they are all personal choices. I say do whatever you need to to survive it.

I remember in the beginning I thought the harder I tried the quicker I could deal with it. I was wrong!  Ladies just do what you need to to take care of yourself and to process this.   Don't rush yourself or think you need to be healed to please others.

Comment by Tammy black(Zendt) on February 10, 2016 at 7:25am

On February 5th my beautiful Amanda has been gone for 18 months. The pain is still so unbelievable. Waiting on this trial has also been hard. I wake up thinking about her I go to sleep thinking about her. My mind races I keep picturing facing the man that took her beautiful life in a split second. Like she was nothing. How do I heal?im grateful for everyone to vent to. God bless all of you.

Comment by Sharon on February 9, 2016 at 10:59pm

One year ago yesterday was the day that changed my life forever. My beautiful 24 year son died on February 8th. You would think that the pain would get better, but it really hasn't. I still think about him constantly. I go between depression and anxiety, but am afraid to go on medication because of the side effects. I can't imagine ever really being happy again.
I love you Troy. You will never be forgotten.

Comment by Teresa D. on January 28, 2016 at 9:57am

Barb birthdays are always hard. Spend the day the way you need to. 

I can say nothing or I can honestly tell you I spent the first year crawled up on my bathroom floor just crying all day until someone opened the door to check on me. When I looked up I saw 9:00pm on the clock and realized I survived it.  Until that moment I literally felt like I would die that day.  I gone through more birthdays with Valentines every where I look as a in my face reminder. 

Barb I will also tell you this.....I did not spend the past two years on the bathroom floor and don't expect to this year either.  I did spend them crying my eyes out though. But it wasn't on the bathroom floor. My anxiety is already starting and February isn't even here yet. 

I expect to cry, not sure what else I'll do but I know I will do what I can so I'm not on that floor.  In time I want to be able to celebrate Michael's life rather than mourning it.  I'm just not there.

Comment by Barb S on January 28, 2016 at 3:26am

My daughter passed away 1/15/15, tomorrow is her 36 birthday, I am having a hard time. I miss her so bad.
I want the pain to go away.

Comment by Teresa D. on January 27, 2016 at 4:04pm

Here I go again, I don't want February to come.  Valentine's Day is Michael's birthday.  He was the best gift I ever received.  He would be turning 33 this year.  So I sit and wonder what his life would have been like.

Miss you Mike! Love you Michael!

Comment by Jesse's Mom on January 21, 2016 at 8:03pm

Interesting web site from bereaved father Guy who lost his son Billy to an ATV accident.

http://www.oursonbilly.com/

Comment by Connie K on January 21, 2016 at 10:46am

Mona

 I am so sorry to welcome you here. My son died the same way a little over 3 years ago. He was a passenger with 3 boys and he was the only one killed (the others were barely injured). the driver made an arrogant, negligent move that cost my son his life. Your daughter is beautiful and I hope you can find some comfort here. Prayers to you.

Comment by Lori on January 20, 2016 at 11:06pm

I'm sorry. 7 months for us... We live in the path that this winter storm is coming. Last winter my Cameron and I hibernated and watched movies during snowstorms.. This really brings back memories and also hurts that he isn't here to hang out with. I didn't know a sadness like this existed in life.

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